The future scares me. The uncertainty and the inevitability of it all. Like a storm brewing on the horizon. Inching ever closer. Until everything gets caught up in the sound and fury. I fear failure. I fear the fall. My flaws and foibles have nowhere to hide. I am stripped bare. To the very core of who I am. Who am I? Who will I be? Tomorrow is but a dream away. Will it be a sweet dream? Or will it turn out to be a nightmare? I am a fool. A fool who has lost her way. It becomes harder and harder to hold on to my dreams. To my aspirations. I am weak. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. I fear my spirit will soon falter and fade as well. They say that light shines brighter in darkness. That a person's true mettle will be revealed in adversity. I don't want my life to be filled with regrets. When I look back ten, twenty years from now, I don't want to wallow in self-pity, constantly wondering 'What if....' Life is too short to waste. And tomorrow is but a dream away....
P.S. Sorry for all the doom and gloom. God bless.
P.S. Sorry for all the doom and gloom. God bless.
