Monday, 16 September 2019

The Weight of My Sky


I am a sinner
I have done things that I’m not proud of
Things that make me shudder even as I think of it now
I wish I can turn back time and make a different choice
But I can’t
All I can do is live with my regrets
My shame
I want to do better, be better
But my demons are ever lurking at the edges of my thoughts
Waiting for me to let down my guard
To pounce and devour me whole
I am so, so tired
Please
Take this burden away from me
Let me have a moment of peace
An eternity of peace
Please
I don’t deserve peace
I deserve punishment
For my sins
For the wages of sin is death
Father, if I can be saved, please save me
Save me
Please

Saturday, 20 January 2018

The Mountain between Us

There is a mountain
Tall and imposing
Between you and me.

It is made up of
All the unspoken words
And pent up feelings
We have piled up
Like rocks.

When we speak
Our own words
Echo back
And fade into silence.

We lie in the shadow
Cast by the mountain
Waiting for the sun to rise
And chase the cold away.

If we were brave enough
To make the climb
Would we feel less lonely
Without the mountain
Between us?

Tuesday, 9 January 2018

Sleep

I wrestle with myself
Until I fall asleep

In dreams
I fall or fly
I do not know

All is quiet
In the dark

And I surrender
To oblivion

Friday, 5 January 2018

A Work In Progress

Artemis placed a hand over her mouth and yawned. It had been another long and uneventful night. She rubbed her eyes to dispel her sleepiness. Dawn was fast approaching. Her shift would soon be over and she could go home and sleep her fill.

She glanced at her brother who was leaning against the cracked wall of the alleyway. He was looking up at the gradually brightening sky, a cigarette dangling from one corner of his lips. She frowned disapprovingly at him. He caught the scowl on her face and grinned at her as he took a long drag of his cigarette. “It will kill you one day, Danny,” she warned him.

He rolled his eyes in annoyance. “We’ve been through this a hundred times, Sis. Smoking helps me stay awake.” She snorted in disbelief. “Suit yourself. Don’t come crying to me if you have lung cancer.” It was his turn to snort. “I never cry.” She couldn’t help but grin at him. “Bastard.” His twinkling blue eyes met her forest green ones. “I’ll take that as a compliment, Sis.”

She chuckled at their light banter. Aidan was her best friend and the only person she could rely on. They protected each other ever since they were children struggling to survive in dirty alleyways and seedy districts. They were orphans for as long as she could remember. She never knew who their parents were or what they looked like.

She closed her eyes and shook her head to clear away her dark thoughts. When she opened her eyes, she found Aidan staring at her as if he knew what she had been thinking about just moments ago. Darn twin telepathy. She turned her gaze towards the Gateway to avoid her brother’s knowing look. She was at once ensnared by the erratic movements of the runes swirling on every surface of the wrought iron gates.

She never failed to be amazed by the strange runes dancing along the iron bars of the Gateway even though she had seen it a dozen times. They emitted a kind of energy that felt almost magical. That thought was absurd. She didn’t even believe in magic. Yet to look at those finely crafted symbols swirling and twirling in an intricate pattern around the iron gates, you could almost believe….

She blinked when the runes suddenly increased the speed of their movements and began to glow. The Gateway was opening. “Danny.” Her voice was barely a whisper but her brother immediately whipped around to face the Gateway with his guns drawn. They were both mean-looking heavily modified Berettas.

She gripped the hilt of her sword which was strapped to her back and unsheathed it. She pressed the red gem embedded in the pommel to activate the sword’s electrical mode. She smiled grimly when she heard the soft crackle of electricity as electrical charges ran along the length of her blade. It’s time to play, Callie. She had named her sword Caliburn- after the legendary sword that was pulled out of a rock by King Arthur.

They waited in anticipation as the iron gates swung outwards. They had to squint to shield their eyes from the bright white light pouring out of the open gates. Through their narrowed eyes, they could make out the vague outlines of dozens of dark figures emerging from the depths of the light. WraithsThe iron gates swung close, abruptly cutting off the bright light. It’s time.

Artemis immediately leapt towards the dark shadowy figures and thrust her sword into one of them in one swift motion. Its blood red eyes widened in shock. She could see rows of sharp teeth as it opened its mouth to let loose a shrill scream of hatred and agony before fading away. Without stopping, she quickly slashed another Wraith before it could attack her.

She could hear the sound of gunshots coming from somewhere beside her. Give em’ hell, Bro. More screams of pain and rage as she swung her sword and slashed the Wraiths which were leaping towards her with their extended claws aiming for her heart. Take that and that and that, you parasites.

“Artie, six o’clock!” Aidan shouted. She spun around and plunged Caliburn’s electrically-charged blade into the midsection of a Wraith which was about to attack her from behind. It dissipated with an outraged screech. She gave her brother a brief smile then continued attacking the remaining Wraiths.

Satisfied that his sister is safe, Aidan cocked his Berettas, took aim and pulled the triggers, dispatching the rapidly diminishing Wraiths one by one with practiced ease. Electricity was encased in the bullets, killing the Wraiths immediately upon contact.

Soon, only one was left. Artemis swung her sword towards the last Wraith, aiming for its neck. It had anticipated her move and managed to leap backwards before her blade could slice through its neck. It hissed at her then quickly bounded out of the alley into the streets. Aidan tried to shoot it but the bullets missed their mark and hit the dirty wall of the alley.

Artemis immediately ran after the Wraith with Aidan following closely behind. Adrenaline pumped through her veins as she chased after the Wraith along the empty streets of downtown New York. Aidan tried to shoot the Wraith but it pranced along the street in a zigzag pattern, making it hard for him to aim.

Artemis was glad that the shops were still closed and that no one is around for the Wraith to possess. Then she saw an old woman standing on the steps of her apartment building. The Wraith saw her too.

“No!” she screamed but it was too late. The Wraith bounded across the street in one leap and wrapped itself around the old woman before she could make a sound. The old woman fell down the steps and landed on her back. The Wraith yanked her mouth wide open and plunged its head into her mouth.

Artemis watched in horror and tried not to gag as it crawled down her throat and took control of her body, shredding and slicing her organs along the way. The old woman’s body jerked and convulsed violently before ceasing all movements. Her body lay still at the foot of the steps, blood running down her chin from her slightly parted lips.

Artemis and Aidan stood frozen to the spot, speechless from the dreadful scene they had just witnessed. The old woman’s body suddenly leapt to its feet. It snarled at them then took off at a run. It was almost comical to see the old woman’s body running with the speed of a young athlete.

Artemis was the first to recover from her dazed state. She gripped her sword tightly and gave chase to the Wraith-possessed body. Anger burned in her heart as she pictured the Wraith crawling down the old woman’s throat and taking over her free will. Molten lava seemed to flow in her veins. A red haze of rage clouded her vision. She was closing in on the possessed body. A loud roar filled her ears, drowning out the sounds of her labored breathing, the pounding of her footsteps, her brother’s worried voice calling out to her….

In a burst of speed, she leapt onto the body, bringing both of them down. Without pausing, she raised her sword and sank its blade deep into the frail flesh of the old woman’s possessed body. The body threw back its head and opened its mouth as though it was about to scream but no sound came out. Instead, a black vapor drifted out of its open mouth and dissipated in the cold air of dawn. The old woman’s head flopped back to the ground, lifeless and limp. Dead.

Artemis pulled out her sword and got off the dead body. When she lifted her sword and saw blood covering its blade, she felt sick. Her whole body trembled as she stumbled into an alleyway. She threw down her sword in disgust. She leaned against the graffiti-covered wall, bent over and emptied the contents of her stomach. She wiped her lips with a gloved hand after she was done and slid down the wall until her rump connected with the ground.

She suddenly felt weary as if all the energy had been drained from her body. I should be used to this by now. I’ve done this plenty of times before. But she was affected every time. Tears blurred her vision. None of them fell from her eyes. She would never allow her tears to fall. She had cried enough in her life. She had learned early in life that crying never helps. The only thing she could do was move on and never look back.

She suddenly felt a warm hand close around her shoulder. A bottle of water was shoved into her hands. She looked up and saw her brother standing next to her, his cobalt blue eyes were filled with quiet understanding. “Drink up, Sis. Your breath no doubt stinks right now,” he murmured. She chuckled, grateful for the reassuring presence of her brother.

She uncapped the bottle and drained it in one long swallow. “I also bought breath mints just in case you need some.” Aidan handed her a tube of mints. She lightly punched his knee and glared at him in mock annoyance. “Let’s go home. I’ve already called the Undertaker to take care of the body,” he said as he grasped her hand and pulled her to her feet.

“Wait a minute.” Artemis picked up her sword and switched off its electrical mode before wiping away the blood with a piece of ripped poster she found lying on the ground. She sheathed her sword when she judged it reasonably clean. “Now we can go home.” She left the alleyway and walked down the streets with her brother, not once glancing at the corpse of the dead woman sprawled in the middle of the road.

Wednesday, 13 December 2017

In Shadows

Vezriel allowed a soft resigned sigh to escape her lips as she surveyed the sprawling cityscape from her perch on top of a stone gargoyle. Weariness settled over her like a heavy cloak. She was so tired. Tired of this dreary world. Tired of death. Tired of life. She briefly considered taking her own life. She sighed again at the absurdity of that thought. It was far easier to end the life of another. She knew that fact intimately. She immediately put a stop to that train of thought before the dark memories could wash over her. She shivered as a gust of wind swept across the city. Her unbound hair whipped about her face, stinging her cold-numbed cheeks. The softly glowing marks running along her forearms and coiling around her neck flared briefly, sending fingers of warmth throughout her body. She traced the marks swirling around her wrist with a finger. The faintly glowing marks were edged with darkness. Soon, they would turn completely black. A shiver ran down her spine. It wasn’t from the cold this time. “Penny for your thoughts?” a familiar gruff voice asked from behind her. She stiffened and quickly whirled around. He was leaning against the wall, his face hidden in the shadows. He detached himself from the wall and strode towards her. Her foolish human heart skipped a beat when his ruggedly handsome face came into view. A five o’ clock shadow still clung to his square jaw. He stopped within a few feet of where she was. He was close enough that she could detect the gold flecks in his sea-green eyes. “Are you stalking me?” she asked, irritation sharpening her voice. He smirked. “Don’t flatter yourself, angel.” She fought the blush rising up her neck. She gritted her teeth at how easily his nearness rattled her. “What are you doing here, hunter?” His smirk widened at her confrontational tone. “Just enjoying the view.” He swept his hand outwards to indicate the brightly lit city below them, but his eyes were fixed upon her. “Don’t insult my intelligence, hunter,” she growled in annoyance, stepping off the gargoyle onto the ledge of the roof. “I do have a name, you know,” he said conversationally as he held out his hand to her. Ignoring the offered hand, she jumped down from the ledge and landed beside him. She shot him a glare before heading for the door. “Stay out of my business, hunter,” she deliberately emphasized the last word.

Monday, 18 July 2016

A Dream Away

The future scares me. The uncertainty and the inevitability of it all. Like a storm brewing on the horizon. Inching ever closer. Until everything gets caught up in the sound and fury. I fear failure. I fear the fall. My flaws and foibles have nowhere to hide. I am stripped bare. To the very core of who I am. Who am I? Who will I be? Tomorrow is but a dream away. Will it be a sweet dream? Or will it turn out to be a nightmare? I am a fool. A fool who has lost her way. It becomes harder and harder to hold on to my dreams. To my aspirations. I am weak. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. I fear my spirit will soon falter and fade as well. They say that light shines brighter in darkness. That a person's true mettle will be revealed in adversity. I don't want my life to be filled with regrets. When I look back ten, twenty years from now, I don't want to wallow in self-pity, constantly wondering 'What if....' Life is too short to waste. And tomorrow is but a dream away....

P.S. Sorry for all the doom and gloom. God bless.

Tuesday, 17 May 2016

Turn Left

You get in your car
Turn on the radio
Drive on the road
No horizon in sight

Wind in your hair
Sun in your eyes
Nowhere to go
No end in mind

When you reach a crossroad
Just turn left
Right is too easy
Too common a path
Just turn left
The road less travelled
The unbeaten track

When you reach a crossroad
Just turn left

You get on your bike
Put on your helmet
Drive on the road
There’s nowhere to hide

The wide open fields
The dust left behind
There’s nothing ahead
There’s no one at all

When you reach a crossroad
Just turn left
Right is too easy
Too common a path
Just turn left
The road less travelled
The unbeaten track

When you reach a crossroad
Just turn left

Listen to your heart
The compass of your soul
Follow the stars
Wherever they go

When you reach a crossroad
Just turn left
Right is too easy
Too common a path
Just turn left
The road less travelled
The unbeaten track

When you reach a crossroad
Just turn left
Just turn left
Just turn left
Turn left